Being Unapologetically Me

I have been a little hesitant doing this post and as it's been sitting in my drafts for awhile i figured i might as well share it. Growing up we're judged and we judge those around us (lets not pretend we don't) It's just part of who we are, we're discovering ourselves, we're learning as we go. We are all trying to fit in one way or another, we all try to be something we're not just so people would like us and i've found myself doing that when i'm in a lecture and to be honest, it gets boring because you're attempting to keep up appearance just for the sake of being liked and it's not fun.

We are always told, be yourself, love yourself, be who you want to be and own it. And while there's nothing wrong with that because we should always be ourselves - flaws and all, it's the part where people make fun of you for finding certain things enjoyable or just being about happy of something so little but so wonderful to you. Being who we are is more rewarding, being our real, imperfect, flawed, quirky, weird, beautiful magical self is even better because that's when we really do let ourselves shine in our hobbies, personality and in life. We look up to certain people in the public eye (celebrites, sportsmen etc) and why? Probably because we admire them, we admire their success, we admire their confidence, we admire who they are as idividuals, we admire their creativity but most importantly they are themselves, flaws and all - they are not perfect despite what their profession is and neither are we.

Being an adult is hard, like really hard. And being 21 with no idea what to do and mental health is making it harder to live a 'normal' life, what career path to follow, where to go next, what to degree to study etc.. You get the idea. There’s a pressure to be perfect in life and that pressure to be perfect is even more prominent in the blogosphere. I know what you see on social media is only a snapshot, you don't see the full story but that doesn't stop the comparrison

My name is Simone and here are a few things you should know.

I am hearing impaired and there are days i just don't like it at all but it's part of me so i learn to embrace it. I judge myself more than i should for how i feel or how i am, i find it difficult to form friendships because of trust issues, if i fall in love with something i will really fall in love with it, i get attached to fictional characters and when they horribly get killed off i cry a lot. I get emotional far too easily, i'd gladly stay up most of the night listening to music and scrolling through social media. I don’t cut myself enough slack. I moan about things that I have the power to change rather than going out and changing them. I’m my own worst enemy. And I either blame it on lack of confidence or something else. I learn to embrace things that make me who i am.

What I love about blogging is that you can write about anything that you want to. There's such a large selection of posts out there for all different tastes, and I feel like that is such an awesome and positive thing. I'm hoping to get into writing one day, so having a blog has been such an amazing platform for me as well as a big step - what's so bad about that? As long as people are happy and aren't hurting anyone, I see absolutely no problem.
I'm considered weird or lazy or whatever because i like to just sit on the laptop and create something to put out there. And that in it's self is scary enough. 

Some of these, shall we say, qualities I’m absolutely fine with. Others, I'd like to change. I want to grow as a person and I want to help myself be better and happier as a person. But it will take time. Being confident takes time. Stop shaming people for being happy, for finding joy in something you consider odd. 

I like that i fall head over hills for a fictional character, i like that i find joy in a fictional romance, i like that i'm open-minded, i like that i'm still in love with the Jonas Brothers music after so many years, i like that i find blogging enjoyable and my creative outlet, i like that whenever i see a dog, it immediately puts me in a good mood, I like that i'm a hopless romantic because of chick flicks, i like that Disney is still my favourite thing to watch, i like that look at fictional characters and say 'boyfriend goals' or look at fictional couples and say 'relationship goals', i like that i want to grow old with loads of dogs adopted and rescued. I like that i'm so called weird because i'm ME. I'm Simone. 

I like all kinds of things but they make me happy, they make me smile. I'm proud of what i've overcome. I'm proud of who i've become because i've fought hard to be her and i'm still fighting to be the best version of myself i can possibly me. So call me obsessed, weird or whatever you like, there is so many things about me no one knows, things i'm discovering about myself. So what if i have 'my head in the clouds' it doesn't make me naive.
 You'll always come across people in life that think they can tell you who to be, but here's the thing: Nobody determines that except for you. If you want something bad enough, you'll get there; even if it takes a little time.

There are people in this world like me. People who know exactly who they are, what they like, what they dislike, what they stand for, and what they will not stand for. Call it stubbornness, call it confidence, call it passion, call it self-awareness, I call it being “unapologetically yourself.” 

There is a story behind every person. There is a reason they are the way they are. Think about that before you judge someone.

Thank you for reading my little rant, just felt i should put it out there. I quite liked doing the little ranty posts because you get to see the 'real' person behind the screen. 

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